So..Today.

Urgh :(

by TakexMexToxThexStars @ 2008-10-07 – 12:45:57

I don't know what to do, Im sat here in college feeling like complete and utter shit. I just want to be happy. I just want to be with Marc, but he's not here today. I don't know what to say to anyone that asks me whats wrong, I don't know what to do with myself. Right now its lunch, I should be out but instead I'm sat in the Mac Suite on MSN and this waiting for Marc to come back online but still hasn't yet. My lesson starts in 20 mins and I really can't be fucked to do it. Animation lessons, sounds fun, Well it is, When I'm in a happy mood.

Hopefully Marc can stay mine tonight though, I really hope he can cuz I want to see him, A whole day without seeing him, and its strange for me because I normally see him like everyday. Miss him like crazy

Listening to Linkin Park atm, And Bullet, They seem to be my depressing music ?
Feel really Emoish today. Feel down, feel upset, just want to break down and cry but I know I can't. I need to stay focused and get today out of the way, Even though its going so slow its untrue. And its even slower that Marc aint here. There's no point in leaving my lesson at 4 instead of quarter past today, No Marc to give me a kiss goodbye Thats gunna feel so weird and so upsetting
Want him by my side Really do honestly miss him, Just want to be back in his arms atm, I actually feel that shit.
Want to be cheery but I just can't. I keep listening to really depressing songs and it gets me down, because all I want to do is be with Marc, time goes fast when Im with him, and when I'm not, it goes so slow, wish it was the other way round so I could spend more time with him.

Dee & Marc Together Forever <3

I Love him so much. Now I'm sitting here wishing he was here. Thinking about him every second of typing this, tthinking about him every second of the day. God I wish I was with him right now. I don't feel right without him.

FEELS SO FUCKING WEIRD AND HORRIBLE!!!

I wanna be happy! Babe make me my cheery self?

I Love you.
xxxx

Welll...

by TakexMexToxThexStars @ 2008-10-02 – 15:03:21

Im sat here in the learning centre at college, supposed to be doing some work, Study period. But I think I will write in here first as I didn't last night..

Everything seems to be great in my life right now. Apart from STUPID EMA.
Pfft nevermind.

Me & Marc are amazing, 6 and half months on Sunday
We have been the best we have ever been and I can't believe how lucky I am just to have him in my life, I know I've said that so many times but he really does mean everything to me.

Im thinking about moving to Plymouth next year to go to Uni, instead of doing it in 2010.
Want to do Photography, But not quite sure. Have to apply soon though.
Renting a flat maybe with Marc, Hes hopefully going there too.
I just asked him weather he would like to go this year, instead of the year after, He said he'd love too YAY!
Not set in stone yet though, But really excited. About time I moved away from home. Its driving me crazy.
Will probably get homesick though knowing me, But I can't wait. New life. New start. New beginning for me and Marc.
Cannot honestly wait

Tired right now, Wish I could be back with Marc, hes doing his Key Skills and Im laughing at him haha. No im not really. Just really bored. Wish I could be with him making him smile and laugh again Its all I want to do.
Hes the best thing in my life, and God I can't stop talking about him to like anyone! Im so in love! And I want the whole wide world to know that :O!

Don't know what I'd do without him, he means everything to me, And I know your gunna read this Babe, and Im glad because I want everyone to know how much I love you and how much I need you.
I know I have made many mistakes, and If I was you, I wouldn't of given me another chance, but knowing you have, Makes me more happier than ever, I am gunna prove to you all the things I said I would. I really mean that.

Can't wait to spend the weekend with you. Hehe.
So excited. I really can't wait to wear my dress.. Ok My sis' then. Gorgeous though.

Babe I just want to say I love you with all of my heart, and Im never ever letting you go.

I Love You. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

He Completes Me <3

by TakexMexToxThexStars @ 2008-09-30 – 18:02:49

Im sitting here, thinking about everything that has happened in the last 6 months. Everything just flashes back in my head, The good and the bad.

Marc <3 - The only and only guy who knows the real me. Who understands me. He looks after me, treats me right. The one guy every girl would love to have, but only a few find them.
He really is the love of my life. He makes me more happier than I have ever been, and I mean really. Its hard enough getting a smile on my face, never-the-less a laugh. But with him, I smile automatically. When I see him I just can't help but smile, and when I am smiling, I never stop.
When Im alone and away from him though, All I ever do is think about him, and how happy he makes me. How he makes me feel. I think about all the good memories we have got, all the funny ones, all the romantic ones.
We celebrated our 2 month anniversary - He bought me 2 roses, to symbolise each other, and another one which he sprinkled the petals all over my bed and lit loads of candle. Amazing night.
3 month anniversary - We watched the Sun set, and he told me that he was in love with me, and that I was the best to have ever happen to him. Amongst a lot of other cheesy things

He has done so much for me, Bought me teddies, bought me roses, hes even offered to take me out for a candlelit dinner soon, I mean come on, How fucking romantic and cute is that? The one guy every girl dreams of, and finally my dreams came true.

We got together on 21/03/08 - Best day of my life. Exchanging looks over the table in the coffee shop at college, flirting with each other. Even asking my best friend if he liked me...Was well worth it. He finally told me how he felt, how he wanted to be with me. My smile just became bigger and bigger. The first day we met - I'll never forget that. Priory Park - Didn't know what to say - But first proper hug.
The days we spent on MSN chatting to god knows what time in the morning, The days we just spend looking into each others eyes and talking, the 5 hour phone call we had in one night being all cheesy - God babe I'll never forget that.

The times we have spent together, the things we have done for one another, I'll never forget. He is my first and only true love, and I don't plan to let him go. He is my life, and Im not letting anyone mess that up for us.

Every moment spent with you Marc, is a moment I treasure, I don't want to complain about the less time we have together, because the time we do have together gets wasted on just complaining about it all. There is no need to do that, because I would rather spend that time kissing you, talking to you, and laying in your arms, then arguing or complaining about how much time we get to spend with each other.

Im so in love with you Marc, and I can't help falling in love with you. You make me feel the luckiest girl in the whole universe just to be with you. I can't believe I have found everything I have ever wanted in a guy, and more, I've found it all in YOU. When I look into your eyes, I don't see anyone but us around, When we kiss its like I go to paradise, and when you hold me in your arms, I know that you will never let me go.
You are the best thing to of ever happened to me, and Im so in love with you.

The Love Of My Life.

Dee & Marc Together Forever <3

I Love You. xXx

Today..xx

by TakexMexToxThexStars @ 2008-09-29 – 21:59:26

So yet again, Im sat here thinking "Wow".
Today has been pretty spectacular. Started off as being shit. Bus was late. AGAIN.
Got to college, No tutor - Thought to myself, "This isn't so bad."
Didn't get on with work until about 1! God what was wrong with me I thought.

Marc <-- The one and only love of my life.
First time I saw him today we both just ran and hugged like we hadn't seen each other in ages, Felt so great. Considering stuff recently.
Have been arguing a lot, well the past 2 weeks, havent been so great at all. Arguement after agruement, about the same thing. The same person. The same people. The same things.
We finally got things sorted on Friday though, And this weekend has been amazing, Felt like us again. Spend Friday and Saturday night together - much to my parents disgrace. (They like him, just don't like the fact hes around all the time :-/ )
Had another arguement on Sunday afternoon, really bad. My fault though yet again. Jealousy kicked in. He walked out of my house, I couldn't just leave it. So I ran after him. We had a massive chat about everything and finally got things sorted out.
Hes the love of my life, The one for me. The best thing in my life and Im never letting him go.
You think about all the stupid things you have ever done to someone and you look back on it and think, why the hell did I do that?

Thats what I thought about Marc, all the things Ive done in the past, I shouldn't of.
I mean come on, he buys me roses every month anniversary that we have been together, how cute?!
The one that calls you beautiful first thing when you wake up? Thats true love.

God I Love this guy so much.

Well for now, this night seems to be over.

Write in here soon. But for now, byee xx